Letting Him Go

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Letting him go was not easy at all. 

I have to do the things I've never used to. I almost gave up.

Sad thing is, I'm the one who's making way for us to be friends again.

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The Struggle ...

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I care about my friend. I don't want our friendship to end because I did accept the guy as my boyfriend. 

I lost the guy. Because I listen to them. It hurts to let him go. But if I really care about my friend, I should end what I've started. 

Yes, I did let him go. He never knew what's the real reason. All I've said, is that I wasn't able to feel that I was loved by him. That I should have not agree with the set-up. That I won't care about what others would say. 


I know, I've been so unfair. But I have to. Because if I don't I may burst. I may explode.


I care about him. And I don't want him to be in between the two of my friend. I don't want him to be the reason why things like these has to happen. 


All I know is that, I have to let him go.

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The Answer :D

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I was really blank. So, I told him to give me some time to think about it. He told me to answer the question when I'm ready. 

I think of it everyday. And I feel that there's love in my heart.

So, I did answered yes! And it's OFFICIAL. He was so happy and so am I.

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As my Story Goes..

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I talked to my friend. 

Then I found out that there's something wrong about our friendship. She started avoiding me. I thought that it's me. Maybe it's all my fault.

  I started avoiding the guy. I ignored all his messages. Even if it hurts, I did. Just to make I friend and I closer again. But, all of that was nothing for her. When I found myself no one to talk to, I asked the guy's presence. And then, he did.

He pays attention to what I'm saying. And obviously he cares. 

He gave me pieces of advice. And I feel so lucky. He told me not to care about what people say. I felt like I was saved by an angel. I made up my mind. I did not listened to them.

From then on, he was my shoulder to lean on. It seems like he was my personal diary. I tell him everything. And he tells me everything too. 
Until the day comes. The confession. 
I don't even know what to say after I hearing those things. He said that he's in love with me. And he wants everything to be official. 

I just said, "Let me think about it first".

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First :)

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It all started years ago in my high school years. I liked someone. Obviously, it's me and my friend who liked him so much. 

It's my friend who introduced him to me. She has pictures of him, his number and they're friends in a networking site. 

At first, I was just curious about him. So I did, added him in the site.  He did accept my invitation, so we're friends. I sent him message and he did reply, until we exchange numbers. Then we started exchanging messages.


We just don't know how it was. Until it came to the point that he wants to meet personally. I was nervous, because I've never met someone, a text mate. But I wanted to know him more. So, I agreed. I met him.


He's not tall, he's quite thin. He has brown eyes, and that's what I love the most of him. When he talks, he talks like he's somebody. He's natural. I got more information about him. And it makes me want more and more about him. 


I admit. I liked him more after that. I was really amazed!

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